Like how I have these things coming up:
30th party tomorrow night (me helping theme), ma here, preaching meeting this week followed by
40th party on Sat with me helping all day with my lovely friend Shelley. Bonus.
50th the next weekend - in Napier - exciting! No theming here or help - i'm hopeful.
Preaching on 13th May, on pride. Somewhere amidst these events I have to find time to prep for this.
1st June - wedding for Hannah with a proposed hens do the weekend before. Prob need to find the girls a fancy schmancy dress to wear to that.
Retreat for work next week, lots of work on for work, no rest for the wicked!
Me not coping with change very well, just been recognizing that control-freak thing in me, has a lot to cope with in the next few weeks. I have noted that of recent months, I have been getting really really good at boundary control, e.g. not saying yes to loads of people and being quite strict on myself. Well done me. I have also been thinking about how to go about starting to write my book and how to reconcile my singleness with my journey of faith. Indeed some great things to think about.
Have come to a good wee thought I feel. That verse about trusting God with all my heart has been popping up along with Pslm 37:4 re the delighting ourselves in the Lord. Questions I'm asking myself - can I trust Him, with Him knowing the type of crazy chicken that I am, to care for me in my current state and that he has great plans for my future? I am having to think - does he know that I'm a scardy, nervous cat when it comes to even contemplating going on a date with a respective male?
I'm thinking that I like that, the knowledge (and the building of trust) that He is and that He knows and that He is all OK with this part of my humanness (even though I may not). This could prob have some holes in it (my new thoughts) but it's a real choice to have to keep handing it over to him, trusting his loving kindness. And I def feel quite comfy in that too. Interesting. That's this week anyway!!
A few questions for you:
How is your heart (emotions and all) with the sale of the house? I heard through bec who had Rach tell her. Small worlds! Been thinking of you guys, hope you're feeling settled in all that that represents.
Have you been doing any running?
I managed a few sessions and after I've got over some asthma I'm aiming to get back into it again. Walking fast for 5 min then trying slow jogging, doing OK!!
My GP told me that I shouldn't be having muesli (this great gluten free stuff i've been eating, with loads of sugar) and that really I shouldn't be eating anything with sugar. Heck he should hear the worse things I'm eating besides muesli! I have been thinking a lot about that. This week i thought it would be a good idea to not eat any dessert type stuff or chic etc. I started well, got to 3pm and had something. Man it's harder than i thought.
I think the biggest things for me over this last few weeks have been the realization that my precious single friend is going to be a double friend and that, in some crazy way, it feels like she's leaving me.
The other side of this whole marriage thing (which is wonderful for my friend by the way), is that it has kept changing (details of where it will be etc) and that I've realized I need time to get used to change (and that i don't cope so well with it even though i may think I'm faking it OK!).
So the last few weeks have been hard, i've felt like the feelings I've had (mostly annoyance at the expectation on me to have to organize a whole lot of things) which have made me feel like a bi-arch, are actually probably OK. BUT i need to do something with those, pray or something good like that.
That is a whole lot of blah, with some q's for you in the middle. The girls of my life are doing fabulously well, school is back and they are settling in well. One girl told Liv how babies were made so she had some convo's about that today using the 's' word. Not much is given away and she seems happy answering her own q's. We shall see how long that lasts. K is more like me every day, wonderful at engaging with adults with questions of interest. She also needs time to refuel as she can only keep that up for so long, like me. Nice to refuel.
How do you refuel when study and work and life are full-on?! I guess going to Italy is one idea!
my fav of all flowers, the hydranga. I pay $3 and get the joy of one of these for a few weeks. I have some growing but they aren't in season at my place yet!!
Love you - oh one more q: have you heard of the supper club thing in London? Like an underground eating thing?! I'm hoping to get a cool book produced by someone in london that does it. apparently a wonderful read and beautifully presented.
love love, xx
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